It's been constant and gnawing at me. Social responsibilities. Parental, personal, financial, medical, emotional... Too much going on at the same time. I'm trying to balance the weight and I hear the ground cracking under my feet. I'm been doing the dance, trying to shift my attention to the top priorities and telling myself that I would get back to the other things later, only later never came. The further you push things back, the deeper into the hole you get, the messier the house gets, the more people you feel like you are letting down, the longer your to-do list gets.
You can only get so deep down into that pit of anxiety before you can't breathe anymore.
So I've done the only thing I can do right now.
I gave up and I've let go. Let the pieces fall where they may.
There totally is beauty in the breakdown, Frou Frou.
I feel you sister! It's this all consuming blackness that surrounds you. It steals your energy, your voice, your smile and your breath. Sometimes the best thing to do is the hardest to just let go! Giving up control is so hard but there will be a light in that hole and the hands of friends and loved ones helping to pull you out and offer aid. Just know you are amazing and I thank you for reaching out to me and just being there to listen even though we have never personally met you are my sister of the soul and I love you and I am here for you anytime!!! Hugs from TS of cgg&cp
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